Occupied Loneliness

Written by Kaffe Myers
Copyright

For years and years, I’ve been running in the same direction
Without ever coming to a stop
There doesn’t seem to be an end to this marathon
Only a consequently distant goal
The face I’m chasing slowly fades away
As the colors turn pale
I must admit, I don’t know why I’m still running
With this weary body of mine

I’ve lost my breath, my will to carry on
But I fear
That if I give up now, I will carry that bag
For a very, very long time
It’s not regret, it’s not the effort spent
It’s knowing that I’ll never know what’s lost
And that unfilled bag keeps on reminding me
That emptiness weighs more than dirt

Fabricated memories in my head
That keep playing while I’m lying in my bed
It’s pretty hard to get that what never was
Is over before it really began

Occupied loneliness of a nearby feeling
Circling around me, spinning, spinning, spinning, spinning,
spinning, spinning
I know love is not about winning or losing
But it feels like I’ve lost an entire future

Though I ought to remember
That life is not a straight line
That a closed road can lead to new sights
And that open arms will carry you home